halo-halo espesyal

The expected moment finally happened. February 21 we received a call from my sister telling us that Papa has rested from his pain and suffering. He died from cancer at 59. The call wasn’t that painful to hear because I’ve been expecting it that soon Papa will return to the Lord. It’s like a  relief for me. Relief  because I cannot bear seeing him suffering.  I couldn’t even drag my feet to visit him lately. I sometimes ask myself why the Lord making it too long for Papa to suffer. Is it his consequences from all his wrong decisions or  the Lord just want us to realize something. Either of the latter reasons I’d rather want to see my Papa resting in peace.

This is the reason why I wasn’t able to write posts. The family were busy the entire wake. Today I finally had the chance to write and  the chance to reflect on my life too. During the wake of Papa I couldn’t get myself to realize that he is no longer with us. Until he was cremated yesterday.  All the good memories of my father flashed back in my mind. There was a Catholic service one night and they asked me if I could speak in front of everybody and narrate all the good works of my father. I’m glad I didn’t broke in tears. Maybe I was just overwhelmed by the good things my father has done in his life. Though were not all perfect but the good memories weighed more than those of not. I will miss him surely. He’s been a good father to all of us. They said I was his favorite son…and I am glad to know that

I’d like to share with you one of Ella’s drawing. She drawed this before we headed to Davao. She illustrated here that this was Ella and Lolo holding hands. Specifically her Lolo is wearing a red shirt which is also the color of the shirt when papa died (coincidence?). And just now I noticed a yellow something on her right hand. I called Ella and asked her what is that thing on her hand. She quickly said that’s a banana! When we were still selling fruits my father always give Ella a sweet ripe banana. That’s what she can remember. When my father is not in good mood because of his sickness he always asks Ella to accompany him and do some strolling. It was still very fresh on Ella’s memories…

Notice that heart shape on his Lolo’s neck-she said it’s where  the breathing tube is. She just can’t explain what it is so she just draw a heart shape…

I’d like to thank also to all who came on my fathers funeral…my relatives, friends and neighbors. We were overwhelmed with all your support and love for my father and my family.

Goodbye Papa…see you in heaven!